31/05/26: Trying to be positive. I went the farmers market this morning and bought some veggies and FEIJOAS, I had a nice coffee and I enjoyed todays rain.
25/05/26: Theres good days and really bad days. On the good days I realise happiness really lives in the ordinary. For me it can just be as simple as a rainy morning! I love rain and even better if I'm sipping a coffee with my sweet cats by my side. And then theres the bad days. Leaving the house & trying to avoid mentally spiraling has become a daily battle
Whether you're depressed or just sad it's hard to put a smile on your face and mean it. But I do it anyway, mostly because I'm trying the *fake it til you make it* technique and then I also don't want to break down and cry if someone says "r u ok?".
So I guess that's where I'm at currently, working on being strong for myself, the road is long.
11/05/26:
I'm coping, just sucks that I have many creative ideas atm but it's really hard to execute anything due to my pain in my hands/arms T_T
I hate you pain I'm sick of you pain. I want to get better!! It's March 25th and today I had an appointment with my exercise physiologist.
This Wednesday I have an appointment with my physiotherapist. I never knew the difference between the two before my injuries.
Everyone keeps telling me "no pain no gain" and I'll only believe it once I'm better. I have been trying to shift from a dark mindset to
a not so dark one lol.
I'm in a slump atm. Mentally & physically. My arms and feet hurt. Focusing on
something like pixel art helps distract the brain for me. This isn't a very eventful update but heres a photo of
one of my cats who brings me an abundance of love and joy everyday (Evie too, just not pictured).
08/05/26: Chronic pain is an invisible disability so I don't "look sick" but it's had a negative impact on my mental health and work. But my arms are thankfully slowly getting better which allowed me to finish working on this new layout.
Anyway it's feijoa season in my country and I can finally
buy kilos of my fave fruit ever!! P.S the lays cucumber chips are incredible.
I deleted all my old blog entries. This year has not been going to plan so I should just not make plans.
In February I injured myself and have been dealing with chronic pain on top of other chronic pain I already have (plantar fasciitis for 4 years lol).
I was diagnosed with RSI centering around myofascial pain syndrome in both arms (deep, aching pain, stiffness, reduced range of motion etc).
